Lenten Promise

Posted by Aarti on February 15th, 2013 . Filed under: Uncategorized .

My Lenten promise this year is two-fold.

One: to write here everyday except Sunday.

Two: to think ONE kind thing about myself everyday.

I am in serious need of some “renewing the spirit of the mind” (Ephesians 4). I realised today that overall, my mind does not say kind things to me. It tends to say things like, “you don’t know how to do that” or “you suck at this” or “you’ll never figure it out” or the very worst, “you’re going to fail and ruin everything”.

Insidious isn’t it? Well, until you actually write it out and realise how silly those thoughts are, huh? You should try it if you haven’t: write out the things those unkind voices say to you. Somehow, writing them out takes all the power out of them! Or at least, a LOT of power out of them.

Anyway, this morning, as I was praying, I wondered aloud how Jesus battled those sorts of thoughts. I mean, talk about bold and confident; think of the things He walked around doing! Imagine ordering the lame man to walk, and then falling flat on your face if he didn’t! With all those people watching!

That takes some serious cojones, my friend.

When I asked Him where He got His confidence, it occurred to me that it wasn’t that He was so confident in His own abilities. It would seem much more like Christ to be confident in His Pappa, in how much He loved His little boy that He would always catch Him before He hit the ground hard (which is why the cross is such a heartbreaking concept to bear). Jesus worked out of that one moment in the river Jordan when God said “This is my Son in whom I am well pleased”.

From Lego Bible

If we’re honest with ourselves, haven’t we heard that in one form or another about ourselves even once?

I’m realising that it’s ok to embrace that, to be proud of that, to own it. God loves me. He’s proud of me. Even though I mess up all the time, He sees my heart and He’s cheering for me.

Because that’s the key.

I asked myself this morning, how would I act differently if I KNEW that God was going to catch me when I jumped?

KNEW.

That it didn’t matter what it looked like, whether there were snakes below me, or roaring rip-tides or just hundreds of feet of nothing… that God would catch me anyway? That if I have given my life over to Him, He has my back?

Woah.

I think I would act a little differently, don’t you?

So, that’s my little message today. For me, for you… renew your mind. And then… jump.

-x-
aarti

10 Responses to Lenten Promise

  1. Carol Suzuki

    Aarti, you might like reading “Help Thanks Wow”….

    http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/15737147-help-thanks-wow

    I have just realized that my prayers feel unnatural because I feel like I’m talking to a stranger, someone who is so high above me that He is unrelatable. I decided this is actually someone who knows me best and who still loves me and I should speak to Him in the same conversational manner that I speak to my Mom who died. But this book helped a lot.

  2. Jana

    Aarti. This post resonates with me greatly, as I also battle with lies that the enemy (and my flesh) try to bombard me with. (who doesn’t?) I always am encouraged and challenged with the verse, “take EVERY thought captive and make it OBEDIENT to Christ” (2 cor 10:5) and I am relieved to have the power of God behind me. Thank you again for your open and honest heart. You such a sister in Christ that I am so encouraged by.
    blessings!

  3. Melissa Valencia

    Aarti–I love when you write about spiritual things (not that I don’t love your cooking meanderings too!) It is wonderful to think that we have a God who does all this for us–He is our safety net, our cheerleader and it is Satan, the accuser who wants us to think otherwise. Thank you for reminding me about how much God is “in my corner”! Blessings to you!

  4. K

    “how would I act differently if I KNEW that God was going to catch me when I jumped?

    KNEW.

    That it didn’t matter what it looked like, whether there were snakes below me, or roaring rip-tides or just hundreds of feet of nothing… that God would catch me anyway? That if I have given my life over to Him, He has my back?”

    You hooked me here.
    The Lord put on my heart to choose the word LEAP for my “one little word” to live out this year. Thanks for putting the desire of my heart into words.

  5. Julie B.

    I was also very moved by your question “how would I act differently if I KNEW that God was going to catch me when I jumped? KNEW”

    …. very interesting, probing question, Aarti. Thank you. I also enjoy so much when you share about your faith in Christ.

    I think I’ve been cooperating with the Lord in the mind renewal department, but the jumping department? Yikes. I don’t think I’ve even come close to the ledge yet.

    May God bless you and all you love today….a sister in Christ from Minnesota. xxoo

  6. Maria-Emilia

    I just started a new job (that I’m very excited about) and I have a lot on my plate. Instead of being happy, I questioned immediately if I was good enough to do everything and not fail. It brought me down so fast I forgot to be proud of myself.

    Thanks for the post! It helped a lot.

  7. Chelsea

    Knowing that my confidence is through God, not in my own abilities is such a comfort. Also, I am glad that you will be writing more. I always enjoy reading what you have to say :)

  8. Christine Tsotsos

    Aarti, you’d be wonderful behind a pulpit..or in front of it. :) Seriously, you have a tremendous talent. You talk about Jesus in ways that make Him so real.
    This is such a coincidence. After searching for a church for almost 30 years (bad experience in college a looooong time ago), I found this little Episcopalian Church right by the Gulf of Mexico in my hometown. It has female priest whose sermons are a lot like your blog posts. Real. True. Pure. Here’s the coincidence…as people thought about what to give up for lent (chocolate, alcohol, whatever), my mind went to something similar to your post. Self-doubt. Philippians….I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. Perfect. No more self-doubt, right?

  9. Darla Daniels

    Aarti,
    May your relationship with Christ deepen in ways even you never thought imaginable. Our Abba is soooo proud of you. You reflect His light so beautifully.

  10. maria

    thanks I needed that post!

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